Be Silent

Talking to myself because you’re not listening
Are you someone else than the one I’ve met
Hoping to get resistance, headwinds are easy
Don’t let us go

Have we become strangers to ourselves
Look me in the eye and deny
Unleash some resistance
Burn a candle in the cold

Honesty is undesirable
It haunts me and leaves me cold
The piece that leaves me in the dark
I run from the abuse to the secrecy

Burn baby burn

Across borders
I went on my knees
Is there this pain
It is possible

The wind can’t change
It does not matter
Reaching too far for the impossible
The walls will not get down

Walking on this road
Solitude will be a new home
But I don’t stop and go
My eyes will stay dry

When is a chance a risk
Where do you draw the line
I do not look over my shoulder
It is possible

The Key

You hold the key
You make me the lock
Listen to the sinner in you
Wait until darkness falls on you

The game is not over
But you determine the synchronization
Change your position
In the decision you make

Don’t dig a hole
Let your walls down
I am too a sinner
It will be a relief

Thin Ice

Heavy sighing I go further
Let down by my hope
Wondering where I took the wrong turn
Gnawing at my mind

Remembering moments
Thwarted by my reality
Reckoning on some form of connection
The non-existent lifelines cut

With my face in my two palms
Impedes my illusion
Behaved towards a painful experience
I go to the next days

Abasement

My heart is in your hand and squeezed out
You gave me a piece where I wanted everything
So I pull and push
I do not know which way to go

I'm talking to you, but you don’t hear me
You push me away
I have to leave,
the power lacks

Can’t you understand
That space is not what you need
Be honest with me
Do what you think you want to do

It must stop
You're good
But not so good
That I keep closing my eyes

K514

Forgive me my moral error
I wanted just a kiss
I wanted to know the purity and touch
I stand at a closed door

You're looking down over me
But give a chance to sweetness
Don’t change
It is only the breath between our lips

I know why you left
I can not blame myself
Living with ghosts and an empty shell is difficult
I just want to remember like it is

Seventeen

Stolen moments of one another
Without immediate awareness of the consequences
Stolen moments of each other
Without awareness of the truth

Explore unfamiliar surroundings
Acquainted with your hands
Strange emotions seeping
Getting familiar with your mind

the tingling of your body
Giving into the enjoyment
the tingling of your tongue
Giving in to your silence

The lips once swollen
Asking for more
The moist lips
Asking to be covered

No woman aloud

I want to be the blue in your sky
I want to be the stars when the night falls
I want you to lose yourself
As I lost myself in you

A bit of stolen time
Is what I ask you
Let us make love
Until it feels like cheating

Only idiots like me
Think that something changes
Where did my pride go
Nothing will be the same

I will be one of the girls
Who shall not cry
Who is tired of trying
To be liked by you

Ego

My silence
Isn’t silent
She’s so loud
Nobody hears it

My loudness
And being occupied
Is only
To hide my silence

2007

Sinking ship

A thousand thoughts
Not to control by the brain
To escape and to wander
Only for the truth

Where are we going to end
On the deserted island
Only a book and a glass of wine
Drowning in the readable drama, slowly getting drunk by emotions

On the deserted island
Drowning in the eyes of the other half of your soul
Only each other and two glasses of wine
Together staring at the sun going doing, getting drunk of romance

Are we staying where we are today
Not to control by the brain
Not knowing whether we are unhappy
Or are we leaving the sinking ship.